recovering

i'm recovering
which is why i've been MIA
and i shall come back with a blast
when i can smile and wave my past goodbye
for now,i need time to hug my teddy and bury myself in the midst of sadness

loving myself

out of the sudden i realised
all this while i may not love myself as much as i thought i have
i thought not doing things that hurt myself is loving myself
maybe not..
if i love myself i won't let myself be in this kinda situation
i wont let myself be bothered with all this frustrations
the thought of not loving myself is unbearable
how can i not love myself?
i need to love myself
i shouldn't think so much anymore
instead of thinking all those stuffs maybe it's better for me to put it all behind me

.....

hmmm headache
what should i do?
i hate this kinda feeling
tears all dried up
another post of emo-ness :(

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me me me

sometimes people just don't mean what they actually said and that sucks
alone in the night thinking at what you've done for the day makes you realise you should do more than that to make up for the time you've lost
maybe it's time to throw everything I'm worried about out of the window
maybe I should think bout myself for once
maybe i should smile at those who blew me off and say goodbye for good
maybe i should do all that but one question popped into my head
how come it's all easier said than done?
i do admit that i don't have enough determination and courage to do all that
today is just one day that i wanted to lie on my mum's bed and tell her how much i miss being a kid